In fact it took me many years to find my relationship to the instrument, and my reasons for being a musician. I had ideas about going into psychology, into healthcare, instead. But you can't run away from your nature, from what you're made of. And it kept haunting me. I was a musician, but I didn't want to be. It was a very difficult time.

- Gabriela Montero ("PIANO" May/June 2008)

 

Frankly speaking, there are times when I wonder "What the ...... am I doing in NUS NURSING???" Tonight is one of those times. What the ....... am I studying about drugs, DNA, how the body works and stuff..............

When all I'm confessing is that I wanna be a PIANIST??? And everyday the dream is bugging me... I see it all the time!!! It's agonizing. ='(

Sometimes, I feel like the boy with 5 loaves and 2 fishes. Nothing much in my hands, little talents. But as he gave them to Jesus, He multiplied them and fed thousands of people.

Similarly, I believe that as I surrender what I have to God, He is able to multiply them to bless many people!

I also wanna thank God for putting many people in my life to help me along the way.

As the saying goes, if He gives you the vision, He will give you the provision.

Amen! :)

Still, after all that have been said, I very much enjoy being in the Nursing course, it's the coolest course in NUS. HAHA. I love learning about our body. It's the most amazing and beautiful creation ever. It's so complex that there are still many many things which the scientists haven't unraveled.

Life itself is a miracle. Something unfathomable. A mystery of God? :)

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Alright that's all for now...
Still learning to like Mondays haha.

Teachers often imply that printed pages act as a barrier between players and the magical, quasi-improvisatory creativity in concerts that we all strive for and which, hopefully. leads to moments of spontaneous genius.

- Murray McLachlan (PIANO)

 

I learnt from Sofi that the person who introduced this performing-from-memory thingy was Lizst. Argh.

Well, when I was younger, I found it much easier to memorize a piece... But now... It's not anymore. Gosh. I believe it's NOT due to age :) but rather overloading of (unnecessary) scientific terminologies and who-knows-what things. :)

I wish I can use just 1 more % of my brain though. It can save me from many things. :)

My schedule is kinda tight right now... Kinda keep me on my toes, which is good. :) Praying for a larger capacity and for extra strength of God!

Oh I wanna thank God I'm 95% recovered already! I totally can't afford to fall sick for the next 3 weeks...

I didn't even eat the pills prescribed, I think they will cause even worse side effects. (-_-) 

Tsk...

YAY Pharmacology test is over~ It was in a true/false format. However, for every wrong answer, 1 mark will be deducted. You can also choose not to answer if you don't know. Rationale is so that we will only choose the answers we are confident of. In clinical, there is no room for errors man.

I had MENTAL BLOCK halfway through the paper... My mind went BLANK. That's the last thing anybody wants during a test or performance. Haha.

Anyway, I wanna thank God for helping me!!! I prayed a lot of times for this test cos I was sick and it's a new subject to me. :) Wanna thank Meng Ching for inspiring me too.

Answers were flashed after the test and I'm happy that some of my tyco answers were correct!!! HEHEHE... And overall paper looked fine hehe... At least better than I thought I'd do...

Of course I should have studied harder or something (yaya...)... Cos most of them were plain memory work. And I left some blank cos I wasn't sure... Sigh.

Anyway... After school I went to the music library to search for a Bach piano concerto score for Sofi. After about half an hour, I finally FOUND it. I was so happy :) Hahaha. Really hope she gets to perform that during our concert!

Met her up for dinner to pass it to her. Had a great time of catching up and talking about piano! Lol... She's my inspiration!!!!!!! I like it when people talk about their dreams. :) Don't have to be piano, but just about anything that you're passionate in. It's very attractive to me and you'll have my full attention hahaha.

Today she said something which strike me... She said she felt in her heart that I should take up the German language. I've never heard her spoke like that before. It was as if for a moment, there were just me and her amidst the crowd.

I have actually planned to take up a language next semester, thought of Japanese (Cos I like the people, culture and food hehehe) but I think I don't have enough points to bid for that. So I thought German will be good too since it'll be helpful in music.

Ok I'm sleepy already... Not fully recovered yet man... But much better. :)

 

P.S.: My blog is getting very wordy...

A Sick Day

Ok I'm officially K.O.-ed.

Went to school for a project meeting today and after that I just knew I couldn't stay any longer for the next 2 lessons. So I left earlier...

Thank God for my dad who came and fetched me home... :) Upon reaching home, I totally knocked out. Slept for 5 good hours. :)

Went to see a doctor, reason is only to take a MC. So I explained to him all the symptoms that I had.

1) Gastric reflux last week
2) Dizzy spells throughout the whole week
3) Gasping for air thingy

He attributed 2) to lack of sleep. Reasonable enough since I usually have to reach school by 8am, and normally I'd only sleep for 5 hours plus. Ever since school starts... :( I miss sleeping!

He said that our brain is like a computer. If you overwork it, it's gonna shut down. So, never underestimate the power of sleep!

And he attributed 1) & 3) to anxiety and stress. They cause excessive production of gastric acid and also cause me to hyperventilate.

So, anyhow, he gave me this pack of "blood circulation" and "giddiness" tablets. Of which a nurse, or whoever was that, told me that I have to finish the "blood circulation" tablets. I asked what was that for??? And she told me it's for my nerves and told me to JUST EAT THEM... (0.0)

Obviously, she wasn't sure too. So I spared her the agony and stopped asking further. Now I know why many people are provoked/pissed by the healthcare professionals due to their lack of knowledge as it is their responsibility to know those stuff.

Sigh, but seriously, there is a tremendous amount of info to remember and I hope the public can be more understanding. BUT of course that's not an excuse for not finding out stuff we don't know.

I think the modern public is not very compliant people, they no longer just follow what the doctor says. They need to know the reason behind every intervention and the purpose of them doing it.

That's really good I think. Don't do things blindly! Challenge the doctors (and nurses...)! Tap into their knowledge and make their salary worth. :)

I don't know why I have difficulty breathing tonight... So much so that I'm gasping for air now...

And what's more ironic is, I'm studying on "Adverse Drug Reactions" now. I'm dreading the Pharmacology test on wed. Argh... Why must drug names be so long and alienish?!

To confuse the already confused patients??? And healthcare professionals... To make them feel smarter when they use those terms?!

Did you know...

That fatal adverse drug reactions (FADRs) account for approximately 3% of all deaths in the general populations?

Making it the 7th most common death in Sweden. 4th-6th leading cause of death in US.

And 50% of ADRs are actually preventable.

I believe one of the (many) causes of that is probably carelessness on the healthcare professionals' part, when they misread the MICROSCOPIC, superfluously bombastic names of drugs and administer wrongly.

That's why for nurses, we have to TRIPLE check a drug for its name and expiry date before giving it to the RIGHT patients (Gotta check their names and IC numbers TWICE.)

Basically, it's the 5 Rs.

1) Right time
2) Right person
3) Right dosage
4) Right route
5) Right drug

 

After writing so much, I'm still gasping for air.... Omg,

Save meee..........

:) I had dinner at Meng Ching's house! Indeed, she's one of the sweetest and most loving people around. I wanna be like her too! :)

She's my inspiration! :)

And for the THIRD time this week, the verse "God is in control" popped up again on a card at MC's house!!! I'm very convinced that God is indeed speaking to my life now.

Not too long ago, my life was kinda in a mess. With exam, project presentation and 2 assignments due one per week, starting from this coming week. On top of that, there're the endless meetings to discuss about the project and my Indonesia trip.

Of course, plus my piano and cello to handle...

It was just kinda overwhelming.

Even until now, I still have dizzy spells everyday! The fainting feeling. Wonder what's wrong man.

Anyway, every night, I still make it a point to read the bible. At least one chapter before I retire to bed. But of course some nights, I didn't read cos I couldn't even open my eyes any longer. =X

Still, I believe God saw it all. The effort I put in seeking Him above all (and of cos the times when I was too tired to read the bible too... =X) and the psychological conflicts that I had. I thank God that He is always right ON TIME to give me a boost when I feel like giving up.

My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever.
Psalm 73:26 (NLT)

I am currently in love with "Okuribito", the main theme in "Departures".

It brings tears to my eyes... It's... Awesome... Beautiful pieces make me cry-ry,.. =') I don't know exactly how to describe that... It's just that I'm so touched and happy for the beautiful creation. Sort of like a mixture of marvel + disbelief + admiration. :)

Er...

I think I'm too in tuned with my feelings? HAHA.

Well, we had a ET band jamming just now!!! AWW IT WAS GREAT FUN!!! I'm loving it!!! The band members were all passionate and hyped up and there was a tremendous amount of energy/electricity in the air!

Steph was there guiding me in the keyboard and she commented that I played with feelings but lack basic techniques. CHORDS and more chords. Kinda not accustomed to the style of music haha. I mean, how to play without melody on a keyboard?!

Learning-in-process. Hehehe.

I'm looking forward to the day when I can play the keyboard during worship sessions. :)

And I'm dreaming of the day when I can have a solo performance on the piano.

Until then, it's important to know that big dreams require the achievement of many small goals on the way. Yea keep telling yourself that Aileen.

Whee~

I just came back from a movie! Watched "Departures". It's a Japanese production featuring CELLO and funeral rituals. Interesting combo.

I like the way they are so respectful towards the dead. In our local hospitals, nurses have to do what is termed the "last office". That is, they have to clean up the body and prepare it neatly for the family members to view. I mean, after all the emotional turmoil, the last thing they wanna see is a disheveled body right?

So by performing the last office, it gives the family an impression that the deceased has a peaceful death. But of course, prior to that, there may be a hell lot of drama.

My dad bought the ticket for me like previously when I watched "Benjamin Buttons". And again like previously, I watched it ALONE! Haha. It's the first midnight show I watched alone.

Halfway through the movie, my dad smsed me,

"See ok, don't cry. You forgot to bring tissues! Ha ha. Enjoy the show."

I have such a COOL dad!!! :)

And before the show started, I smsed MengChing telling her I'm emo and stuff... And have NO motivation to study or whatsoever. And when the show ended at around 2am, she smsed me,

"Aileen! Hope you are feeling better after a movie! Just wanna let you know, I'm always there for you! :)"

So touched!!! Thank God for people whom I know I can count on! :)

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Yesterday was also the first time I had such a LONG piano lesson. It lasted 1 hour 20 mins. 20 more minutes. :) Both my teacher and I totally lost track of time! Hehehe... :)

As cliche as it is, time flies when we're having fun! :)

"The feeling of never getting there is frustrating, in a way, but it's also necessary, and exciting. If you ever feel you've "arrived", then I think you should leave this music well alone."

- Paul Lewis
"PIANO" July/August 2008

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Had a chat with Sofi last night and I told her some of my struggles. Felt very encouraged by her. She told me to keep practising and that God is in control.

Strange enough in Shing's (my cgl) email reply today, she said the SAME thing, that GOD IS IN CONTROL.

It is comforting to hear that twice on 2 consecutive days. Indeed, it was a word in season for me. :)

By the way, I'm so proud of Sofi! Her dream is about to come true SOON in August, She's mostly likely playing a Bach concerto during our orchestra performance. So exiting haha. She's my inspiration! :)

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I had a nightmare this morning. It woke me up at 6am. It was too scary... That I needed 1 minute to recover myself. It was so real, that even while I was conscious, I thought it really happened to me, that I kept having to question myself.

I smsed Meng Ching cos I know she'd be awake early to pray every morning. :) And she prayed for me. Thanks girl~ :)

What a way to start off my day...

Thankfully it's Thursday! My favourite day of the week cos I only have to attend 2 lectures and the rest of the day is free. :)

Alright till then...

If you have a XY chromosome on your 23rd chromosome, or produce androgen hormones, please do NOT exhibit the following traits.

1) Indecisiveness
2) Whininess
3) Weak-mindedness

NOTHING TURNS ME OFF MORE THAN THOSE. Period.

-Life's Little Treasures-

Ooo... Look what I've found.

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Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Cello lesson today!! I think it was great~ =)
There will be a rehearsal tmr.. Anticipating! =)
Love doing things that I love.. =)
Somehow, the cello isn't that heavy anymore... The lethargy after work vapourises like alcohol on warm skin... And shopping seems dull and boring in juxtaposition...

But I haven't reached the 'fanatic' level yet I guess.. But maybe on my way? See, everytime I'm out, I wish I can be at home playing my piano... Coming up with new melodies... It's real frustrating when a nice melody strikes you out of the blue when you are out, with nothing to seal the spontaneity... And most of the time, it slips away like a viper in the desert sand.. Hidden in the deep nowhere...

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Glad that my passion for music is still alive after 2 years!!! *beaming* And of course I'm still far from the 'fantastic' level LOL... Ok now I think it's such a kiddy word. And of course I'm still on my  looong way there...

Some things never change? =P

"The higher we get, the further the horizon becomes."
- Andras Schiff

It's a never-ending journey, who knows where it will lead, when you can't even see the destination?

And yes, I still look forward to coming home everyday!!! It's my best chill out place on planet earth haha. That is, if I'm alone at home. It's little wonder why it takes tons of discipline to study at home. :(

And by the way, when I least expected, in 4 days, 3 people have told me that I slimmed down. HAHA... More reasons to eat!!!

That might be due to stress...? Which led me to have numerous gastric reflexes (heartburns) and dizzy spells recently. Today being the worst.

Ok off~

School Stuff

 

1) In case you haven't known, there was a 2nd suicide case in NTU within just 1 week.

Why did they choose to die in school and scare everyone???

It is alarming to know that both are from the same school and in the same course. But let us not be judgmental about the school system and stuff... And start pointing finger at the poor lecturer who was already literally backstabbed. I believe it's more than that?

Whatever it is, however rough situations may be, they are not worth exchanging our lives for.

 

2) Hehe, if you've read 07 March 2009 copy of the NEWPAPER, you'd have seen my JC principal's grinning face flashed across page 3. :)

I'm not surprised that he was still wearing his white shirt.

Anyway, memories of him are etched in my heart. I always think he looks like Mao Zedong. I will never forget his white short-sleeved shirt + black pants + white socks + sandals. It's like his own set of uniform.

One memorable moment I had with him was during a fateful morning after assembly. I was happily talking to a friend on my handphone. And suddenly I heard someone shouting, I turned and it was actually him.

By the way, he always shouts in school. Especially in the canteen, when people leave their cutlery and utensils around.

So lo and behold, he was actually shouting at me?! *innocent look* (o.o) I knew it and was still happily talking on the phone... Now I wonder where did that audacity come from. =X

Anyway, I can't remember what wrong did I do that morning that aggravated him. He confiscated my phone and I had to see him in his office to retrieve it back. What an adventure lol...

Ok that was 3 years back. :) Not something to be proud of huh lol...

 

3) After half a year in NUS, I finally saw an eye candy that made me turn my head. Probably the one and only in Science. Who knows, he may be in other faculty actually. Haha.

My Year 2 and 3 friends are all convicted that there is no eye candy in Science. Lol...

I was watching TV tonight (like once every week), and was delighted to see an advertisement promoting NURSING!!! I'm so proud of the nurses. I'm glad they showed a MALE nurse too. I think male nurses are very brave, they dare to go against the stereotype. And please, do not have the preconception that male nurses are SISSIES. They are not.

In fact, my tutor once commented that male nurses make good husbands. Haha. Female nurses love having them around too as they can help in the more physical demanding stuff females are incapable of doing. Eg lifting a fat patient.

 

Alright that's about all for now.

I spent 14 hours in school today...

And I'm so freaking irritated that I have no time to practise piano for lesson later... Sigh... My teacher's gonna grill on my scales first thing every lesson... Cos it's not exactly my strongest... Though it's the easiest to score... So so frustrated...

And I'm actually quite afraid of her when she grills me... So much so that after playing all the scales, my mind is kinda exhausted already. The mental intensity is there ya.

I may skip tutorial to come home earlier to practise? Cos I really treasure every lesson and wanna make the best out of it.

Perhaps it's not the best thing to do. I have never skipped any tutorials. But this time round...

Music rules.

 

Maybe...

 

 

Oh and I have a Medan meeting at 8am later.

Do you know what you're getting yourself into???

Her (Carola Grindea) fundamental contention - that total musical communication can happen only when body and mind are free of negative tensions, and muscles and breathing can function unhindered ... she was one of a handful of musicians in this country who really understood the problems, the misery, that musicians, often privately, have had to endure.

- "PIANO" January/February 2009

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I had a thought recently. 2011 might be the worse year yet. =X By then I'll be in my final year in NUS, I suppose it's gonna get tougher from now? And I'll also be taking my Piano Grade 8...

HOW???!!!

Seriously...

Gotta run on God's supernatural strength, otherwise I'd probably just curl up and die. Haha.

Mostly likely I'd be taking piano Dip. after Grade 8 and continue as far as I can go in my lifetime... Who knows I might not even end up being a nurse???

HAHA, I mean, things are curiously unpredictable sometimes. :)

Maybe, somehow, I'll have a fusion of both nursing and piano? Bringing music into the hospitals! How about that? Things can be worked out. :)

I have always wondered why don't hospitals have some light soothing, therapeutic music playing in the background??? It can probably put/induce some patients to sleep (not in that context lol...) and nurses will be less busy catering to unnecessary requests of patients. Or rather, more available to do more important things.

A large majority of patients admitting into hospitals in the next 5-10 years would be our parents' generation. The baby boomers!

Many people + many new diseases.

(0.0)

Please tell your parents to take good care of themselves NOW!!! Stay healthy! :)

Yaya the same few words. I shall disappear now!

Ok I hate it that I have to juggle between music and science. It's causing much agony and distress. How can one person live in 2 different worlds?

Yet I can't (and don't wish to) get out of either one.

='(

 

She is Ong Meng Ching a.k.a OMC, one of my bestest friends! I'm so proud of her!

She's one of the strongest people that I know. Incredible. And she's smart too! Having being the only one to obtain "excellence" in her recent test in NUS Business (Honours). *Beaming* YOU GO GIRL!!!! Of course that was also after praying much to God! Prayers work!!! :)

She's been constantly on my mind recently. Love ya.

Anyway, keep working on your "Flirting 101" HAHA... Hope you can publish it one day. Sorry I can't help much... Lol.

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Take me deeper...
Deeper in love with You.
Jesus, hold me close in Your embrace...

Take me deeper...
Deeper than I've ever been.
I just wanna love You more and more...

How I long to be deeper in love...

I had insomnia last night. Or rather this morning. I slept at 4.30am and woke up at 10.30am before my alarm was supposed to go at 10.45am.

The 6 hours of sleep wasn't satisfactory too. I had 4 different dreams.

In a chronological fashion,

1) A man forcefully tried to inject me twice.

2) I was at a wedding. I was the bride. -_- And the bridegroom? It's for me to know and for you to find out.

3) My bro, cousin and I were supposed to meet my mum, aunt and uncle at Macdonald's.

4) I was in JC and I skipped Chinese lecture. =X

 

The 13.5 hours that I am awake, I accomplished 6 things.

1) Tidied up my room. So proud of myself Haha.

2) Registered online for my piano exam which costs $263.00. ='( So much for that 30 minutes... ='(

3) Practised cello

4) Studied Pharmacology (At least a little bit)

5) Almost finishing my book "The Heavenly Man" on my train ride from Boon Lay to Pasir Ris and back. I almost cried in the train~ =X

6) Cello lesson

And of course wasting my time doing mindless stuff like blogging about my night and day which aren't that interesting anyway.

Oh ya, I haven't taken my dinner... :(

Don't tell my dad...

To add on to my previous post, I'm gonna talk about a very common health problem in Singapore - Gastric ulcer (a.k.a Gastric)

Contrary to popular belief, gastric ulcer is NOT caused by irregular eating habits or lack of eating, rather it is caused by contaminated food with bacteria Helicobacter Pylori.

How the belief came about was probably because the pain will subside when food is consumed, hence people assume that the lack of food is the cause of it.  However, it is important to note that food can only relieve the pain and not actually cure it.

To cure it, you can take antibiotics. (And hope it works...) Alternatively, you can take drugs that neutralizes gastric acid or inhibits the production of it.

That's about all that I can remember about gastric ulcer.

For more detailed information, check it out @ www.medicinenet.com

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My dad is especially particular about me having regular meals. He will be aggravated if he comes to discover that I haven't eaten a meal. Even until now.

When I was younger, he would call me up specially to ask if I have eaten. Ya to that extent. Thankfully, he stopped doing that now.

He also takes his meals at regular timings. For example, at maybe 12pm, he needs to take his lunch. So what happened was, once I woke up late and had breakfast at 11am. To my amusement/surprise, he actually wanted me to have lunch at 12 plus?!

HAHA. That's him, he's quite funny.

He would always say "Later got gastric then you know ah..." But now I know better heh heh.

 

So anyway, always remember to say GRACE before eating.

After being in Nursing for about half a year, I'm ashamed to admit that I still don't know how to spell "DIARRHOEA".

Diarrhoea.

D-I-A-R-R-H-O-E-A

What's with the "RHO"??? It's so redundant! And whoever can remember "RHOEA"???

Ok, reason why I bring this up was because I had a diarrhoea this morning. I suspected it was due to the wasabi I ate shortly after I woke up.

I deserved it right? HAHA.

Anyway, have you ever wondered why do we have diarrhoea?

3 reasons.

1) When the small intestine detects toxicity in the food we consume, it is triggered to flush out whatever that is inside.

2) Since most of the food is being absorbed into the body in the small intestine, failure to do so will cause retention of food (chyme) in it, hence water will be accumulated in the small intestine due to osmosis. This leads to watery stools.

3) Inflammation in small intestine triggers motility.

So hmmm, I think my reason is 3)??? Wasabi -> inflammation...? Haha whatever right.

And by the way, it's very common to say that we have "stomachache" when there is pain 'somewhere' in our belly... However, our stomach is actually located near our heart (hence the term "heartburn" during a reflux). So if you find yourself clutching near your belly button, the more precise description is "abdominal pain". Your intestines have probably cranked up.

Haha so much for now!

 

P.S: Aileen, you've spelled the word "diarrhoea" SIX times now. PLEASE REMEMBER.

Somehow, my Fridays are always packed!

8am-10 am : Medan meeting
12pm-2pm : Contemporary Nursing Tutorial
2pm-3pm : Pharmacology Tutorial
7pm-8pm : Piano Lesson
8pm - ? : Rush down to church

Ok it's not exactly packed... Just vastly spread throughout the day...

Gotta go for piano soon but I feel like SLEEPING... Been zonking out a lot recently at irregular timings...

(-_-)zzZ...

I'm really sleepy now...

It's our term break next week. It comes just in time man... I need to catch up on a lot of stuff.....

Alright off...

I was blogging, with pictures and all, and it cranked up. I'm not gonna do it again...

Off to practise on my piano SCALES now... Hmmm haha...

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

I wanna thank...

1) God for His love and faithfulness in my life. That's the greatest gift of all!

2) My parents for supporting me and my dreams.

3) My friends! Who colour my life! Thanks for the wishes, treats and gifts too! :)

4) My heart for beating ceaselessly for me.

5) My pancreas for working so hard producing much insulin lately.

Speaking of which, it's time to lose weight now before people cannot recognize me. HAHA...

Take a look and you'll know why.

 

 

And now I shall stop here and study for my Physiology test which includes the gastrointestinal tract. At the same time, I can reminisce on the journey my food took down my body.

AH this is sick! HAHA.

Ok nicer pics up next... Lol...

Happy Black Friday!

I received a stalk of flower, a Freddo, chocolate cookie and brownie today.

Of which I have eaten the Freddo, cookie and halfway through the brownie. Sweetness overdosed! (It's good that flowers are inedible... Lol)

I'm seriously gaining weight. Oh no. =P

Staying back in school tonight to study for Physio test next Thursday. I am planning to memorize on top of understanding... Will see if it works.

In the meantime, I am hungry and planning to log off and go for dinner.

And by now, I'm 3/4 way through my brownie. :)

OH YA by the way, I did fundraising for my Medan trip in school yesterday! And we raised a total of $900 in just 7 short hours simply by selling some small stuff!! Amazing.

Our booth was located at the Science Foyer where there was a bazaar and it was really fun meeting all my friends who walked past lol.. Of cos I got everyone to buy some stuff. HAHA... The medical students were very kind too! A lot of them supported us! Teamwork!

That was an eye-opener to the nus spirit! I'm hoping that the trip would be totally sponsored.

Alright, OFF! :)

Here I am in the Science library, while my friends are happily swimming! Just had a 2-hour Physiology tutorial on Neurophysiology which I am totally CLUELESS of. And now I feel LOST and desperate to redeem myself. SEE, I TOLD YOU TO STUDY!!! YOU ASKED FOR IT.

Ha.

Both me and my dad woke up LATE today and in the attempt to get ready in 20 mins, I forgot to bring my wallet. So now I'm careless, cashless, cardless and clueless. HAHA.

Kinda missed Jeff kor so I smsed him for lunch (before I realised I have no $) but he's cooped up with work.

"Love ya girl, you're the best." - Jeff

He kinda made my day.

Alright I'm off...................................

Fridays are normally crazy.

Today went like this...

9.30am-10.30am : Piano
12pm-6pm : School (NO BREAKS)
8pm-9.30pm : Cello
11pm : HOME

Talk about an eventful day...

BUT hahaha today was exceptional. I was really excited the entire day even while on the way home! Smiled my way home! 

Cos I'm just loving everything that I'm doing!!! I love piano, schooling and cello!!! And I love coming home too hehe.

In fact, the entire week was awesome!!! I'm so happy!!! HAHA.

2 major things are taking place.

1) My MOTHER will be coming to CHURCH with me this coming Sunday!!!!!!!!!!! Never before. I have been praying for her recently and while I was reading "The Heavenly Man" on Monday, I remembered a short scary vision I had a few months back about her. It was probably only 1 second short but man... It was scary. I shan't describe it.

I can still remember vividly exactly where I was when I saw that vision. I was walking and I froze. So I'm really happy that she's one step nearer to God now and on Sunday, she will receive her breakthrough. AMEN!!!!!!!!!

 

2) My trip to Serdang, Medan is CONFIRMED!!!!!!!! I almost couldn't get in as I had submitted my reply late but now I'm in.

So I'll be away for slightly more than 2 weeks in July. I'm so excited. Medan is a place close to my heart as I stayed there for 18 days with my JC in 2004... I miss the SHOOTING STARS most!!!!! We saw 11 of them!!!! It was magical!!

This time round I'm going with NUS and it's for a different cause. Though I'll still be staying in an orphanage and going to LAKE TOBA for R&R haha.

Lake Toba is actually a huge volcano crater filled with water. Its size is bigger than Singapore. How cool is that. But I had motion sickness and regurgitated THRICE on the way up... HAHA. However, this time I'll be going with nurses-to-be! So it's pretty safe HAHA...

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Alright I still have 101 things to do at the moment...

School is getting EXCESSIVELY fun. I'm so looking forward to going to school EVERYDAY.

Does this sound ominous?

Ok so in a cohort of 74 people, I hang out with a group of 7-8 people. Out of these, 3 of them drive.

And some days we have LONG breaks.

So that's it. :)

Uni life is now 75% fun and 25% work. And I am beginning to wonder what the rest of the cohort are doing...

Like today, during the 3-hour break, we went SWIMMING in school. IT WAS FUN. My friend taught me how to swim! Hehe. Yaya I don't know how to swim the correct way yet... (To think that my bestie Cai is a swimming instructor and lifeguard. Haha.)

We liked it so much, we decided to make it a weekly thing. HAHA... This spells trouble.

So then after the swim, we went opposite to have Subway and headed for lecture.

It was "Therapeutic Communication" lecture about "Self-awareness" which apparently was too therapeutic that 4 of us at the back row fell asleep.

Tsk... WAKE UP YOUR IDEA AILEEN.

Oh and ytd... Lecture was canceled and school ended at 10am. (So gross right, Marilyn?? Lol...) We decided to go Vivo for shopping and lunch HAHA...

Come to think of it, we'll be colleagues in future so it's important to build good rapport among us.

I guess we're on the right track? =X

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CONGRATULATIONS Mon for getting into the 2nd round! :)

Except for my Pharmacology textbook which I spent $37 on... I have no book on hand to read. So I looked through my row of books and decided to finally read "The Heavenly Man" which I bought months ago.

Wow, I didn't know it was THAT captivating... And to think that I left it untouched for so long. Ha... It's about "how God took a young, half-starved boy from a poor village in Henan Province and used him mightily to preach the gospel despite horrific opposition."

It's dramatic. Life with God is always an adventure.

Speaking of which, I have been praying for my brother and mum. I'm overjoyed over what happened on CNY. But I believe there is MORE...

Yes, my brother can be a pain in the ___ and can irritate the angel out of me (if there's any lol...). In fact, it was just a moment ago, when I was playing the piano and he blasted the TV. Never do that.

Still, I've made a commitment to pray for him every time I pray. Everyone needs God. Otherwise we'd be like lost sheep without a shepherd.

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Some trivial stuff...

My naked piano! Prior tuning. Hahaha. Isn't it AMAZING??? Wow... 0.0 I'm still impressed with it after having it for 8 years. It's been with me through many ups and downs... Heh.

My first attempt cooking my childhood soup!!! Lol... Something which my grandma and mum often cooked...

My dad said it was VERY NICE lol... Which I agreed too HAHA... But he said I should cook it for a longer period then it'd be nicer haha.

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Ok I'm off to buy some printing papers and prepare for school tmr...

I should actually start studying by now... Like the sit-still-and-analyze-every-sentence kind of study...

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Hi Hilary! HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you!!! :)

And Hung, WELCOME back! And CONGRATULATIONS! Hehehehe.

 

Jan Ladislav Dussek - Sonatina Op. 20, No. 1, 2nd Movement

The starting really makes me laugh when I listen.. (Self-entertainment at its max.) Lol... It's just excessively cute.

Anyway, this song always reminds me of a little girl who went to a funfair with her mum. The starting was when she first step into the fair and was bewildered by what she saw. (00:14) Then she got excited and dragged her mum in further.

(00:26) At a game station, she saw a brown bear that she wanted! (00:56) And she kept bugging her mum to get it for her... Her mum scolded her and she kept whining... And whining... (1:46) Until her mum finally gave in, shook her head and bought it for her.

She was so happy.

- The End -

When you tried your best but you don't succeed.

When you let down the people who believed in you...

When you feel like giving up time and again...

When the road ahead is long and winding...

When certainty has disappeared...

 

"Be still (Aileen), and know that I am God."
Psalm 46:10

 

It takes confidence to say that.

And with a quiet trust, I smile.

I don't know why am I blogging so much today!!! I went to watch a movie alone just now HAHA... Well, it's just across the street and I felt like watching. So I went. So me...? Haha...

The guy at the counter went (0.0) when I told him I wanna get ONE ticket. Seriously, what's wrong?

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And now a thought crosses my mind...

When I go up to heaven next time, I wanna play heavenly music!!!

I hope that my skills and techniques will all be perfect in heaven! And then I'll play with all my heart for dear God! I'll still choose piano and cello. They are the 2 most beautiful instruments Man ever created.

But in the meantime, while on planet Earth, I wish I can do that too... Hmmm... Somehow it seems far-fetched. But I'm gonna do my best.

I guess there's no need for nurses in heaven? Hehe. So I'll be glad to be a FULL-TIME musician for eternity!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Wow. I am gonna play music forever.

Dad picked me up from school earlier then we went to

1. Collect passport
2. Newton Circles to eat my MeePok
3. Botanical Garden

Nice date.

HAHA, hope that my future bf (since the topic is so hot now) is spontaneous and DRIVES! So we can go many places together hehehe...

Managed to take some shots while my camera was still alive...

The Swan Lake

 

With a REAL swan! HAHA...

An attempt.

I like this shot!!! 

Nice? :)

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Talking about passport...

I might be going to Serdang, Medan this July for 2 weeks with NUS Nursing. It's a rural village where the people can have up to 5 meals a day but their diet only consists of rice and chilli. So we'll be going over to do a survey/research and educate them about proper balanced diet.

Or something like that.

So me right? HAHAHA.

For those who don't know, I take fast-food less than 5 times a year.

It's empty calories. (Meaning high calories but no/low nutritional value.) Plus all the horror stories you hear about fast-food.

I don't see why people still have the appetite for it. Haha. Ok la it's tasty (due to whatever chemicals they put in) but I don't like the after-effect of eating...

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My head is throbbing now and I'm in a mood to watch a movie!

Off!

Oh oh I'm happy!

I just called a piano technician and arranged a date with him. So he's coming to my house tmr! Sounds wrong? Lol...

By RIGHT a piano should be tuned every 0.5 year... However the last time he came was 1.5 years ago?! And he tuned it for 1.5 hours... That was terrible cos I didn't tune it for a few years as I had stopped learning then.

The tuning process is kinda noisy whereby he'd repeatedly hit on the key very loudly to tune... But I'm always very intrigue and would watch him in action as he takes out his tools and opens up my piano!

And I'd MARVEL................. (0.0)

The piano is such a brilliant invention.

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iWant!!!!!!!!!!

If I can see it, I can have it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Hung stop scolding me.... :( )

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HAHA... K... I'm going to school now. For only 1 hour.......

Chinese New Year

As for every Chinese New Year, my relatives always said and asked the same things.

1) You have slimmed down. (I'm beginning to think it's a formality to say that Lol. Thou shall not be deceived.)

2) You have grown prettier. (Open for refutation. Haha.)

Of which they would inspect and touch me all over... Like my hair... Body... *shrug* ...

3) Do you have a boyfriend?

This is a hot all-time favourite question. HAHA. I supposed everyone has been asked that at least once? Unless he/she is present or something like that. So my aunt actually asked me to get a DOCTOR since I'll be a nurse in future.

-_-

NOOOOO way....

Cousin: Why not?? He'd be rich...
Me: Eee NO...

Just low affinity towards them. Ha...

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It was a heart-warming feeling to be around family members, people who watched me grew up and who grew up with me. Cousins who used to pull my hair and create havoc together in the house.

I love my childhood!

We played a lot together... And were actually racists who would fight with the Malay kids HAHAHA. It was so fun!!! Cousins unite!!!

(Note that the above is in PAST tense.)

Of course we've all grown up now. =P

So my family is now left with only 2 young kids. I had fun playing with them earlier lol... They are still oblivious to what their older cousins used to do Lol...

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I nearly cried again today...

As I mentioned in my earlier post, my grandma came up to me and chucked a $50 note in my hand (on top of the angbao she gave me). I refused to take it and told her that I'm big enough now... She kept looking around hoping no one heard us... And insisted that I should take it since she's working...

='(

My grandpa asked me a few simple questions and I felt like crying already. Just touched by his love...

When it comes to them, I'm soft-hearted because they played a big role in my life.

Wow... Reunion dinner... Lol...

I ate for 2 hours. :)

That was because I'm a SLOW eater. HAHAHA...

Round 2 later!!!!!!!!!!

My family members commented that I'VE SLIMMED DOWN a lot. And asked if I've been eating... HAHA. See... More reasons to EAT!!!!!!!!!! =X

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AH, MengChing is so blessed!!! She has just received an iPod from her sis-in-law!

I've been wanting to get one for SO long... WHENEVER I travel, I long to listen to some songsss... Otherwise I'll resort to reading my notes. It's probably a good thing then.

Been wanting to get...

1) A keyboard  to play in my room...
2) A handphone (Which dad has promised)
3) An iPod..
4) my piano tuned..
5) Cello D, C and G strings
6) Cello bridge changed
7) Piano polisher/cleaner

All 7 things, I've been PROCRASTINATING for the longest time...

Reasons
1) They are EXPENSIVE
2) They are not an immediate NEED

Still... It's only a matter of time before I need to get 4) 5) 6) done. They're cranking up already...

Seriously, I don't know what I'm waiting for?!?! Some angel to get them for me?! For those stuff to drop from heaven?! Tsk... AILEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Still, I know that God knows the desires of my heart! AMEN! HAHA... Even so, thou shall not procrastinate!

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Ok, back to the reunion dinner...

Some of my family members were shocked that I went into NURSING. My grandma didn't like the idea and said that it's useless, Others think that it's a noble profession, probably after seeing the nurses in action during my grandpa's hospital stay...

Whatever it is, I'm proud to be a NURSE (in-making) and it doesn't matter to me what others think. If it's your CALLING, you'd better address to it. A lifetime is too short not to do what you're called to. Or to do something which you're NOT called to.

And one more thing, I HATE it when people refer to nurses as MISSIES. IT'S plain RUDE. Patients should be educated on that. But don't worry, nurses are NICE people who give equal rights to all patients (or try to...). OLD (70 and above) patients are excused, they're probably oblivious to the implication.

You can joke with me once or twice, I can even find it funny. Anything more, YOU ARE plain IRRITATING.

People have this perception  that nursing is a DIRTY JOB. It's funny, if YOU are a patient, will YOU tell a nurse that?

I'll leave you with that.

Think about it.

Oh yay it's reunion day tmr...

When I think of my maternal extended family, I'd always feel like crying... They were the ones who took care of me while growing up... Especially my grandma. It was human's love at its ultimate. Certainly wasn't easy.

I remember standing beside her watching her cook... Tagging along with her to the wet market... Crawling up on her laps...

She was the one who tricked me and plucked off my tooth... Who brought my cousins and I to the playground... Otherwise, she'd scream from the 10th floor for us to go home. Who rubbed boiled egg on my bruise...

She's always the one chucking money into my hands even though I refused to take... And she'd tell me not to tell my parents.

I thank God that she's still very fit and healthy for her age. :)

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My grandpa.

He's always the silent one. The first to sleep in the family. The one who loved watching WWF on the TV... The one who loves eating duck backsides! So we'd always save that for him.

He has diabetics and had just amputated his lower leg. This brought me back to the Youtube video I saw about the process of a below-knee amputation. It saddens me to think that he had to go through that operation.

When I see him tmr, he'd be on a wheelchair. It'd certainly break my heart.

To think that I played on a wheelchair in school, wheeling around... Making turns... Trying to 'park' myself... It's just not funny anymore knowing that a loved one has to depend on it now.

As a nursing student, I'm prepared to be bombarded with questions tmr, of which I hope I can help. But frankly speaking, I'm still a green horn and there're simply too much stuff to learn about everything in such a short time.

It's always good to have a nurse in the family HAHA. To consult if you doubt the doctors. =P

Wedding shot of my grandparents!!! :) This is so vintage! My grandma looked like a classic Chinese model... HAHA...

Looking forward to seeing them and EATINGGGGGGGG!!

Ok I had a crazy day. And I'd like to scribble it out.

1) Piano
2) Nursing Tutorial
3) Lunch with Matt
4) Pharmaco Tutorial
5) Pharmaco Lecture
6) Cello

1) Lesson started at 9am. Whoever plays piano so early??? Ha... And I was fresh from sleep, still having sinus. So while playing, the mucus kept flowinggg... I couldn't focus completely and kept having to interrupt the lesson by clearing my nose!!! Like 5 times??? Tsk... She taught me the 3rd exam piece today...

2) Thought I'd be late for school so I took a cab from B.V. Turned out I had to wait for 10 minutes for the teacher... Anyway, I'm normally quite vocal during tutorial... So at first I asked a few questions which kinda impressed the tutor. Lol... Then I asked a totally lame question which cracked me up (self-entertainment) but she actually took it seriously and tried to answer...

3) Matt came to look for me in school to return me stuff and we ate at Subway as usual cos I have 20% off. He delivered some good news too.

4) Well, this tutor made me quite frustrated. When he taught, he didn't look at us and his body wasn't even facing us. *?!*  The whole lesson I was trying hard to figure out what he was saying. And that was tiring.

5) Lecture was fine. At least I could understand and be on par with the lecturer. But that means I had to focus greatly.

Pharmacology never fails to suck the blood out of me. But it's interesting to know how drugs work and exert their biological effects. What actually happens to the pill you pop in?

So school ended at 5pm. Did some stuff and left school around 6pm... Buses were all packed and I didn't dare to squeeze with the rest cos of my cello... So my friends and I actually hitched a cab ride from someone, one of my brilliant ideas... Lol... SO what happened was...

In the cab, we found out that he was actually a professor in school. "OH MY..." Who just arrived in SG 2 days ago... He insisted that we didn't have to pay him cos since he's a prof he should take care of the students... And he felt happy to pay for us...

So touched! And so blessed! But I'll never do that again.... Today was exceptional cos of my cello and I was rushing for time...

6) So by the time I reached my teacher's house, guess what? I was totally drained already. I feel bad actually for taking up his time and playing so badly. Really disappointed with myself. :(

I reached home around 11pm? Called some people to settle some stuff for tmr... Oh and I haven't taken my dinner.

"Why are you so hardworking today?"

My dad just asked me that. HAHA. I'm still studying... And reason is not because I am hardworking but rather it is because I slept for 4 hours earlier... HAHA...

I love school!

I am amused and intrigued by the new knowledge imparted everyday! :) Like during physio lecture today, we had the answers to things we often take for granted.

1) Why do we have to drink water when taking medicine?
2) Why do babies have to be burped after consuming food?
3) Why is it that a person can hold alcohol better after taking in fatty food?
4) How much saliva do you produce in a day?
5) If you think that the fecal matter you produced at night was what you ate for breakfast earlier, then you're wrong!

LOL... Does it make you wanna find out??? Lol... Please ask me if you're dying to know so I can revise too HAHA... Or any other health-related burning questions that you have, so I can find out too.

Oh Yang... Look what I've found in my archive...

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Sunday, April 29, 2007

By now, most if not all of my jc male friends are in the army.. And I'd like say a big THANK YOU for your sacrifice and for keeping Singapore safe and sound... that we can go to bed every night peacefully.. =) Remember, don't lose passion in whatever you loved doing before entering army..
Yang, continue to do what you are good in - playing beautiful piano pieces. I shall find you to accompany my cello in future.. =)

             ~~~

See... I have faith in you! HAHA!

But I don't know when my "future" is gonna come to past... At least my passion for cello is still pretty alive currently. The diminished flame was ignited recently and I've been practising cello everyday since... It's as if I'm under some magic spell??? Ha...

And 2 days later, my cello teacher's uncle will be coming to coach the string players in our orchestra. It's kinda hmmm amusing? Daunting? To think that I'm learning under people from the same family... Haha...

Ok I'm off...

At 1:40am...

My MSN window popped up...

::::Jeff:::: says:
you're loved..
::::Jeff:::: says:
your dearest kor..

It was so out of the blue, I nearly cried. Ha...

And last night while lying on my bed, snips of memory played through my mind. It was about my journey with this person who has been very encouraging and patient with me all along. My source of motivation when I felt like giving up.

And it brought tears to my eyes. Too touched. :)

When I think about the people who are close to my heart, I feel blessed beyond measure. I don't know what they see in me that I should deserve such favours and I can never thank God enough for them.

Had piano lesson in the morning and my teacher went through 2 exam pieces already... Just gotta tidy and tighten up now...

Very thankful for my teacher cos I improved a lot under her, she makes me love music more... Maybe it's her passion in teaching... Also thankful that she always teaches me for 10-15 minutes more! That's almost one more lesson in a month... :)

Anyway, I still feel solemn. For what reason, I don't know... Nothing happened too. Maybe it's school work... Maybe it's just the transition from holiday -> school. Lost my appetite for 2 weeks already... My teacher asked if I've slimmed down HAHA. NO I think.

Since I'm feeling like that, I might as well take advantage of that and record an emo song.

So here it is...

Yiruma - River Flows In You

Yiruma is a Korean and most of his songs are kinda sentimental... Youtube him for other songs...

Enjoy...

Let me know if there're things to improve on... I know I rushed a little at the back... Was slightly nervous haha.

Gotta go for lesson now... It's from 4-5pm. 1 little hour in school today... And it's Pharmacology... Loaded my bag with sweets already...

It was a solemn day.

The physio lecturer I mentioned is really good. I felt bad for discriminating him earlier... =X

Cos every sentence that proceeds out of his mouth is mostly important stuff which carries a lot of weight. His lecture captivates me and manages to keep me wide awake.

For a serious lecturer like him, it means that every little non-serious comment that he makes, intensifies the funniness and amuses us.

Like...

"It's all in the notes, so you don't have to copy furiously." Lol...

I can't bring out the essence of that sentence here haha but it made the whole lecture hall resound with laughter. Lol...

Btw, today he taught us that Vitamin D is actually NOT a vitamin. It's a hormone. Cos it does not fit the definition of a "vitamin".

I'm beginning to like Physiology and he's the reason!

And no, first impressions are not lasting when the second impression is totally different. Haha.

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Well, school ended at 10am today. So I hanged around at YongSiewToh library... My latest favourite spot in school... And read some cannot-be-borrowed music magazines haha so more reasons to go there...

Hope that my studies won't be affected.

Don't know if I can handle school + piano + cello... I wanna do well for all...

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Accompanied Meng Ching to TanTockSeng Hospital to visit her goddad. People always think that hospitals are very depressing places, but if a person is depressed, anywhere can be depressing.

:(

The entire day just didn't feel right.

I tried to practise on cello but it sounded awful. So I stopped. Been practising for the past few days and WAS happy with my progress. But today was BAD...

:(

I'm just gonna stop here...

Back To School!

 

Still gotta get used to sleeping before 1am. And getting up before 7am!

My dad woke me up this morning by threatening not to drive me to school if I continued sleeping. It worked good.

On the way there, I was so alive and excited to reach school and see my friends! But I was the earliest to reach among my group of friends... Haha so the waiting period kinda dampened my mood as I was SUPPOSED to be sleeping at that time...

Ok so the first lecture was Physiology. Nobody likes it except some weirdos. To make it worse, the lecturer was kinda boring and looked boring too. He didn't even start off by introducing himself or warm us up... But went straight ahead with teaching us about all kinds of hormones.

HORMONES at 8am?!

Anyway, I stayed awake for those 2 hours. Amazing grace...!

I'm kinda freaking out now. This semester is gonna be tougher due to the introduction of a new subject "Pharmacology". I suppose we have to memorize a hell lot of stuff like the names of medicines and their constitutes..

To think I even have trouble remembering names of PEOPLE I talked to... =X

 

Nevertheless, by faith I believe that I'll be able to not merely survive this semester but to pull through it victoriously.

AMEN!

Had a GREAT day!!! Felt really high and happy today hahaha. Though I don't know why I lost my appetite...

Here are some pics!

We went jamming together!!! FUN! Great company~ :)

Sharmagne and Seow Shi

Some of us went down to celebrate Darren's birthday! (The more INTENSE you wish for something, the faster your wish can come true! Lol...)

Birthday boy!

Vincent the Manhunt guy HAHA..

Steph is so cute! :)

 

Music makes my day!!!!!!! Love to hang around with like-minded people too!

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On a heavier note, I HATE GOSSIPS. Don't talk to me if you're gonna gossip!!! It just gets on my nerve to hear bad stuff about so-and-so.

Firstly, I don't have to know.
Secondly, it's boring to me.
Thirdly, it's unhealthy to my mind and soul.

I'd rather be known as the self-ostracized than to be involved. Some people gossip to feel secure about themselves...

Pst Kong: When  you bring someone down, you make yourself APPEAR higher.

Some people join in to gossip to feel a sense of belonging in a group. I'd rather not belong to that group.

Yes, when 2 agree on something, there is power. Power to build and likewise, power to destroy.

I just hate gossips. Period.

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School is starting SOON!!!!!!!! :)

Oh it's such a happy day!!!!!!!!!

1) Woke up at 9.20am for my piano lesson which was at 10am. Hehe. Started on my 2nd exam piece and it's quite a fun piece to play too. Hehe.

2) Bid for my module again and I got it for just 1 point! Yay... By the way, there is NO such word as "bidded". Past tense of "bid" is "bid"...

3) Finally went for cello lesson at night! After almost a year of not having... Haha. Nice!!

Well on the way home... I realized something. My music lessons are both at the ENDS of Singapore. Piano is 6 bus-stops away from Boon Lay interchange and Cello 2 stops from Pasir Ris interchange...

For the love of music, I'm willing to go the DISTANCE... Love knows no ending! Waha...

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Side track, talking about uniforms...

My friend just showed me the new army uniform...

http://www.mindef.gov.sg/imindef/
publications/cyberpioneer/news/2008/
September/03sep08_news/03sep08_photos.html

It's unpleasant looking! (Understatement)

And actually nurses aren't supposed to be wearing our uniforms out of the hospital after work. Though it's a common habit here.

It's not because of the fear of having GHOSTS following us home HAHA... But it's for an objective reason which is to prevent the spread of diseases to the public.

Everything in the hospital has to be clean and hygenic. Nurses have to wash our hands after touching every patient (of course not within their sight) if possible. I washed mine SO many times @ St. Luke's. And there are actually SEVEN steps in a medical handwash.

We are taking the old saying "Prevention is better than cure" LITERALLY!

:)

Here I am again.

I've just checked my bidding result and I DIDN'T GET THE MODULE!

For us, we have only 500 points to play around with. And the winning bid for the music module that I wanted was 903, and contemporary social issue was 620.

SO...

I'm gonna bid again later...

For

GENES AND SOCIETY.

"The aim of the module is to introduce students to the modern concepts in biology and to enable them to evaluate independently the potential benefits and risks of the biotechnological revolution and its implications for society."

It's still kinda linked to Nursing. My modules for this semester are

1) Physiology
2) Pharmacology
3) Therapeutic Communication (?!)
4) Contemporary Nursing

Those are allocated modules which I don't have to bid for. Yay don't have to see cadavers for this semester. IF I get "genes and society"... My whole semester is so Science and Biology!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH................................

I like Science and Bio stuff, but it can get congestive sometimes! I need to express my creativity somehow... Like to at least have an Art module which I can read and write more interesting stuff and where there're no right or wrong answers!

I'm good in writing crap sometimes (That's creativity ok...)  so those without specific answers are good for me!!!

Science is too definite!!!!!!!!

:(

And most of my days start at 8AM!!!

So JC?!?! And I thought I'm done with waking up early for school forever. Lol.

Who on earth study at 8am?!?! LOL...

Ok there're plenty but I totally can't imagine now after 3 weeks of waking up LATE... :)

But all my Physiology lectures start at 8am... And that subject is... ='(

 

Well after all the ranting, I'M STILL EXCITED FOR SCHOOL!!!! =) So looking forward!!!! YESSS....

I must do well this semester. Aim to increase my GPA by 1 (under-performed for last semester)... For the sake of the patients I'll be serving in future HAHA...

 

 

Ultimately, I just wanna glorify God in all that I do.

Woo, there's Tattoo Show @ the Singapore Expo from 9th-11th Jan. Which is the next 3 days.  Check out @ www.tattoo.com.sg if you're interested!

I have been thinking of getting one. Perhaps in a more discreet place due to the taboo of having a tattoo and it's not allowed in Nursing as we have to uphold a professional image...... :)

I absolutely think that having a tattoo is something amoral. Will it make my character worse? No! :) But we can't deny there is still a stigma attached to it even in this modernistic time.

Why.................. Oh why...................

 

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Anyway, in the past 5 days, I've been to City Hall 4 times, Esplanade 3 times, met Steph 2 times and Marilyn 1 time.

Haha. Madness. And Steph asked me out again today to the Esplanade AGAIN. Lol... But I wanna stay home toady and do my stuff...

Think I put on some weight during the holiday HAHA.

With a red lipstick, I can become a GEISHA instantly.

With Marilyn just back from Perth.  I wanna go for a backpack trip to Aussie next holiday!!! Perhaps for 2-3 weeks? Anyone?!

I can't believe I actually woke up at 9.45am. It's WAY before my normal waking up time haha. All because of a few smses...

1) Steph - Meeting her AGAIN for lunch 2) Cello teacher - May have lessons with him again... I MUST improve more this year!

So here I am again. :)

I think I've blogged excessively this holiday HAHA. Once semester starts I won't be coming often I guess. And I hope. :)

Before I leave to meet her, here's a video recording that I did earlier...

Yiruma - I

As much as I wanted it to be mistake-free, there is ONE particular note that I played wrongly and that stuck out like a SCARECROW. Argh... And I don't know why my neighbour had to SCREAM at her child as I was recording.

Haha. Anyway, enjoy. And give your feedback if there're things to improve on.

Thanks! :)

 

1 more week to SCHOOL!

I'm excited for it haha. I love school and I don't mind the LONG hours of breaks or staying back late HAHA. Gonna maximize my stay in NUS!!!!!

Although I love my holidays too. =P I'm satisfied with the past 2 weeks of holidays hehe...

Oh and I'm so happy that the course I want is available! Bidding starts on the 7th and I'm so gonna bid for that... It fits nicely into my timetable too.

The module is........

MUSIC IN THE GLOBAL CONTEXT

So at the end of the module, I will learn to appreciate different styles of music more. HAHA. It's under Yong Siew Toh Conservatory of Music! So cool right! =)!

HOPE I CAN GET THAT.................. Though there's totally no link from the course I'm taking, :) it's linked to my life!

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(Chunks of disorganized writings...)

This afternoon Steph told me a news which made my heart skipped a beat and my adrenaline rushed a bit.

If I have wings I swear I could fly!!!! (Eww... Cliche.)

Even as I'm typing, I'm SMILING to myself just thinking of that. (And it's 3+am already)

=)

I am feeling jumpy :D

I love my life!!!!!!!!!!! And I love my dreams SO much I wanna bring them into reality.

Ok the news has something to do with PIANO of course!!! :) My life, my love! But I won't say much yet.

I'm so proud of her. I should be calling her "shi mu" soon!

And btw, I'm happy about the 'origin' of my name! My dad told me he named me after a PIANIST in CHURCH... I didn't know that till I was 16/17?

Maybe he had a crush on her or something? HAHA...

See, I really shouldn't be blogging now... I shall spend tmr practising the piano and cello. YES.

Falling in love with them all over again!!! :)

WOo... Met Meng Ching just now at Holland Village! And I ate the most expensive Nasi Lemak ever... It cost $5.90! Lol.

And while eating, a COCKROACH flew and landed on my back and crawled from RIGHT TO LEFT... I wore a tube dress and so I could FEEL it!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ah. And on Boxing Day while Cai and I were talking on a bench, a LIZARD crawled on my leg!!!!!!!

?!?!

WHY ME!!!!!!!!

I know I said "come what may" in my previous post... BUT NOT SUCH THINGS?! HAHA.

Anyway, after our dinner I brought her to a nice place to chill. It's called "Essential Brew". A cosy cosy place to hang out and talk but NOT recommended for couples to go. Just not the right kind of feel haha.

With her Camomile tea

With my Chocolate ice cream :)

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Funny background haha.

US! :)

We just kept talkinggggg.... Till there was nothing much to say anymore Haha. Or rather we couldn't think of anything more. :)

She's a great girl! Big-hearted, funny, hardworking, sincere, genuine, direct, strong, godly, understanding, helpful and cute! =)

Happy 2009 to all.
Keep believing.
Keep YOUR dream alive!

Went for a dinner with my mum at Sushi Tei @ Paragon. NICE place! NICE food! =) Cos I was craving for Jap food and was hungry too Haha. Recently I like anything Jap hehe.

Well so on the way home in the train... 2 funny incidents happened within 15 minutes.

1) I was standing and reading a book and a woman came up to me and asked "ARE YOU PREGNANT?" HAHA. OMG. It's either she was blind or cos of the 'airy' dress I wore HAHA!

Then I think she saw me looking at her nail polish on her fingers... Cos it was Purple with glitters and it was just weird on her considering her age. And she said "My nail polish very nice right? Very bright,.." -_- I could only muster up a small "Ya." HAHA, White lie, polka dotted lie whatever! =P

A few minutes later...

2) A woman standing about 4 steps away FAINTED. Surrounding her were all men! And the men's "Ah..." diverted the commuters' attention to that direction. Including mine of course haha. Nurse leh... HAHA!

But this nurse didn't know what to do! =X And anyway she got up on her own after a while and sat on the couple seat. The "poor thing" part wasn't the fainting but the aftermath of it.

The men surrounding her formed a semi-circle and were all staring down at her. Gosh... I know they were concerned but it was kinda intimidated wasn't it?! HAHA. Anyway so since I didn't know what to do and she looked alive, the least I could do was to sit beside her and make sure she was ok and to have at least a female near her...

Now people were looking at ME... Like to see what was I gonna do with her or something? To their despair, the drama ended there. HAHA. I did nothing until we alighted and I offered to carry her stuff... Lol... Well at least something..........

All I can say is... THEY COULD HELP BY NOT STARING. =P

What an interesting night huh...

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And when I reached home, I had to stress over which module to bid for later!!! It's kinda like window-shopping for a module. I short-listed a few but they all clash with my timetable! Argh...

I wanted Jap language or music module but CAN'T... So I decided to take...

Contemporary Social Issues in Singapore

Hopefully I can get that. If not for nursing, I'd have gone to Arts and take Sociology/Psychology/Social Work. But I still can take modules from there. I love NUS! =)

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I'm quite nervous about the bidding actually, never done that before! Haha. And very excited to meet MC later at Holland V! =)

I love holidays!

Anyway, to all primary and secondary school students in W472, no more LATE nights on msn/phone and telling me you're BORED!!!

STUDY HARD!!! (Muahaha...)